Aku sumpah tengah stress cause there's no respond at the new working place cause at the same time I have tender my resignation letter for a week. Ade aku dah berhenti sini,sane tak dapat?? tak mampus??.. Haha.. But anyways, redha kan jee lah.. Wad to do.. *sigh*
There's something i need to share here. Bet some of u know wad is it regarding. Well, let me go straight to the point, me and him are officially off. I did not sound soo mean when i wanna end it,in fact i said i wanna meet him and we can see each other maybe for the last time, but he insist. He never tell me the reason why cause for him once break thats it, no more meeting up.I was frustated cause i dun wanna end it in a you know,kental-way where talk on the phone and then, thats it BREAK!
Come on ok, as year goes by,we're getting old and we have our brains to think.
For sure I dun wanna this kindda, stranger thing occur between me and him.
I want us still,be friends cause from the start we started off as friends, and i dun wanna loose that. Takkan pasal benda nie terus putus persaudaraan kan? Macam mepek la.
*Sigh*
But at the same time, i can't force him. If he thinks thats the best for him, i respect his decision.
I felt a bit released after this thing is done.
I do LOVE him still, but is it LOVE in the first place?
No, its not. Its just plain crush.
And it ended up in a r'ship which goes no where.
Im doing this not to be selfish.
Im doing this for the sake of myself too.
I have to prove myself that i'm ready to get committed and love the person that is always there for me.
And for that, i have to love myself first.
And I'm sure when this time come, i'll be very happy and can't wait for the next step.
As for now, i have to search my own self,and gather it, to bring back MYSELF.
Im sorry for doing this to you.
I know u can't read this but i really mean it,Sorry.
I wont regret meeting u cause u made me happy once and i want it to last.
IF we're meant together, time will tell.
I'll pray u the best and may u get someone better in you life.
Better than me.
With love,
BumBum
