Intially, we are not busy with work.
I had my own time with my friends, whereas u keep msging me where am i.
I didn't give a though of u at all whenever im outside.
You need my attention and i HATE it..
As time goes, we less communicating,less msging..
I dunnoe your whereabouts,neither do u know mine..
As for now, whenever u plan with your friends, u wont bother reconsider my meeting/going out with you..
I won't be disturbed that much but i would feel a little bit upset.
I control every single emotion that sometimes i can't feel bother at all
Whenever I start to feel like this, i guess, thats it and no more risk,no more hurting your feelings
But I dun have guts to do it, or say it directly to you cause at a small space of my heart, i do love you.
Its the matter of time for me to reconsider all this thing.
I'm not ready at the same time im taking the risk too.
There's another HIM.
Sometimes he's there, sometimes he's not.
Whenever we talk, there's always laughter concurred.
Although most of the time its random, i love his company,very.
He confessed that he do have the same feelings for me,
but he choose THIS part to stay with her cause he doesn't want to hurt anyone's feelings anymore and i totally respect that..
I guess its because of that, that i HOLD this r'ship with you.
I dun wanna hurt anyone but im doing it now.
I'm hurting you but u were ever patience towards me
thats sometimes i feel pity instead of LOVE.
GOoosh! i dunoe why im doing this..
I dunnoe why u're not letting me go either?
Time that will heal everything.
I pray the best for us and may GOD open my heart to love you sincerely.
Fickle-minded, I am.
As for HIM, he be a stain my heart...
P/S: U ever a playboy before and maybe now. Doing things secretly. Just dun let me find out myself. It'll be worse then.
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