THURSDAY
Double o tak jadi ok!Because of you, i cancel my everything just for the sake to meet you. Well the actual plan was after work, i head straight to Hotel to get myself prepare for the so call occasion lah. But it turns out not as its expected, but luckily you make my day with all ur stupid jokes ok. You do your stuff in the room and i'll be like drinking like there's no tomorrow. haha
Well, my first time ever with you and its really a nice warm feeling when u hugged me, tug me to bed and im fast asleep. He said i snored.. OOps! penat tu.. hehe. Tml work babe!
FRIDAY
As usual, im late fer work actually but the previous night i've msged my boss asking fer early released today and big possible I can get it. And yesh i get to leave at 2.30pm. Guess who im meeting up again? yup yup, its Mr hadi again. Well, we've plan to watch movie,get his T-shirt, after that tak tahu..Luckily he have booked the tickets. how sweet!
We watch "OBSSESED" movie but before that supposed we need to find the his baju basahan so called lah, but too bad we round round @ the Raffles shopping centre, FCUK,topman and tak tahu ape branded tempat tu dier pegi, pun tk dapat2. At last, i get my own stuff. I get a shawl fer myself cause actually baju aku koyak sikit ok. Buat malu jer! haha.
Well, i bought a shawl for $19.45 lah.MAHAL nak mampus! i got it @ Accesorriez. walau! never ever i bought that kind of price. Boh pien mah!..hmm....
Inside the movie, we are just acting like one fucking couple la. He hold my hands,whisper to my ears if there's something he wanna commnent about. Never he let go my hand ok.haiyo! pale otak! and i get butterflies all over and my heart PUMP faster and FASTER.
After movie, he accompanied me to have my rest. 2 days straight im with him, without having enough sleep and im working the next day. haiz. Sacrifice fer someone i know thats not gonna be mine ever. hmm.....
The only way fer me to stop thinking about me and him, i just drink till i get a lil bit high and then im off to sleep. As usual, he will tug me to bed and gave me a hug. Its such a nice feeling. Why can't I feel the same when im with BF. haiz....
P/S : The 2 days when im with you, your companion is the best fer me. You make me feel safe,you make me laugh and you always never fail to make me smile. But what i know, there will be a LAST time for us and i dun wanna wait for that time cause its gonna hurt me inside.
Every little time i spent with you, i wanna us to treasure it and dun feel regret if we have to let it go. Cause fer once, you have enter my life and made me happy.
I love your companion cause you gave me comfort, but i dun like the grudges i feel whenever i think about it.
How i wish we can just stay that way without anything or anyone to come in our way and just be normal ?
How i wish you can just be there to hug me throughout e day without any tomorrow come?..
Well, how i wish........
I dreamt about us,just US in our own world just like normal couple.
Dreams may come true, but dreams are also events in mind of sleeping person.
It may, it may not. IDK....
Let nature take its caused. I hate to think about something that's not worth while at times.
SATURDAY & SUNDAY
At last i have my weekends to just rest rest sleep sleep like PIG! haha
I've been sleeping throughout the day on saturday.
Well, Mr Hadi called me up and we talk for like 2-3 hours padahal the 2 days tu we spent our day quite well. hmm...i dun want it to end can?....
Mr kedondong wants to bring me out but i promised my parents that i'll be staying at home this weekends and so yah, its cancel..Sorry then...
On sunday,Mr kedondong though of meeting me up at the same time pass Ayah's present which he bought with me the other time..But i seriously can't go out but maybe he thought i dun wanna see him or watsoever, so he just msged me something that pissed me off. After he put Ayah's present at the usual place, he msged me. When i wanna unwrap the stuff, i saw BITS & PIECES box. (takan tu untuk bapak aku kan??) I opened up and i saw a beautiful necklace lying on the sponge of the box. Its really beautiful and i appreciate it but it doesn't impressed me in anyways my dear, seriously. You are just showing me your love with money, and i dun like it. haiz..Im sorie dee... im so so sorry...
Well, this matter is getting from OK to worst la which got me all stress up. I dun know what's bothering Hairi recently?
The way he said, im just getting to his nerves knowing that im contacting with his bro, Hadi.
HaDi is attached and so am i.(am i??). He just way pissed or maybe jealous that i called hadi names like dear,baby and such stuff whereas i know it didnt effect hadi in anyways either cause he knows it means nothing to him. This is wad i felt lah, but i dunnoe Hadi dimself.
So maybe Hairi overlook it and yah, he get pissed.
Why is the need to back off?
Im treating both the same, by physical lah.
I know you and co-incidence i know your brother.
Between me and Hadi, we just have our own secrects which i think this is not the right time for me to blog about it.
All i can say, by all mean you can leave if u think this matter bothers u and gave u a burden.
I guess the problem can be solve if only i just knew only hairi, not Hadi..
Hadi came to my life and everthing just changed.
I have to declared something..
I have a mixed feeling towards Hairi. Sometimes i meet him up just to release my missing towards Hadi, but sometimes, I do love his companion as in person.
I dunnoe wad am i doing?
Everything just seem to be complicated and worsen.
Never my intention to play your feelings.
I dun wanna loose the both of you.
This is hadi (adek abang)
This is hairi (abang adek)
Kau bilang aku sikit macam mane aku kadang2 tengok muke abang macam adeknyer.. pasal muke dorang nie same!! haiyo haiyo!!!
MONDAY
HAPPY 51ST BIRTHDAY DADDY!
Can't wait to be home and celebrate this event with you dad.
And guess wad? I got presents for you DADDY!! hehe. kental eh!
MJ dah mampus but ALHAMDULLILAH my dad still alive whereas they actually having the same year.
Semoga di panjangkan umur dah dimurahkan rezeki ayah......muackz!! SYG AYAH!