After a hectic month of march, like finally its OVER! Why do i say it like that? Cause week in, week out, its been jungle, jungle and obviously JUNGLE. Well i got my break and a long weekend.

Have been planning this outing for quite sometime and i guess its time. Cafe Del Maer here we come.

We reached at about 1 plus, changed and head straight to Cafe Del Maer. Ordered a gigantic bottle of beer and foods. We had nachos and fried chicken. Talking of food, we had to ordered some cause "someone" was already shivering due to low consumption of food. :)

The whole day it was pictures after drinks after smoke after gossiping about other patrons around us. One by one each left, and well we just stayed on. Chilling under the sun, little breeze, and yea, "little" bit of complaints too. Cards are played to kill the silence between us. And at least we could kick each other ass other than using our feets.

Basically it was just for us to relax and chill together. Oh did i mention, about how many drinks we bought? We had gigantic bottle of beer, screaming orgasm, chivas, mojito, jagerbomb, baileys irish creame and last but not least their house bourbon. Thats too much for a day right? But we enjoyed it and non tipsy at all. Never ask why.

We head the showers at around 1930, and its a pretty long time tat we sat and fidget and walk and gossip,and this is the real thing, "Talk about anything under the sun". Till its sundown, somehow the music starts to simmer down, and we finally left. Hah!

Afterwhich im really famished. We head to Subway and ate. Supposingly before that we "were" to go to the vivocity rooftop to just chill but we didnt. And as lucky as we could get,there are some people, or i should say someone, that is still not destined for us to bump to. (God knows what will eventually happen. Am not counting on my lucky star too much, though) So after our last picture at Subway, we snored our way home to wdls by bus. And its a fucking long journey. Our both legs cramped, cause someone chose to sit at the seat where 2 pax can face us.

Thats the end of our beautiful saturday. Just me and my gf. If u didnt notice at all,im not her.
Still dont get me? Im her most irritating, annoying, bloodsucking lovable boyfriend, Farhan is my name. :) Sorry baby if this takes a little long to write for the day, but WTF! I dont blog! Hah. There is always a saying,"There is always the first to everything in life."

So im blogging now at her place with her sitting beside me being a pain in my ass. And also laughing and finding it weird at maybe the way i blog? Who cares. Now she is singing with her blocked nose. Gawd! Help me! Tolong!

My nanny is at my home and she came to talk to me. Its done! Settled! Just wait for the day, "Fish"! Right in your face. Whatever you have, cherish it before it perished right under your own stinking nose.

Im really grateful and very blessed to have this crazy woman beside me(and also directly beside me) I wanna tell you people, dont eye on her ever, if i know, im gonna gun u down even if u are already in the ground. It was uncalled for but just writing. :) I love her and i thank her for being patience for this whole month. Nobody knows what she went through, with me always not around,in the jungle. Thank you, Fitriza *Ahmie* HAH! And i love u the most baby. Counting on the months, and u'll be mine! Hah. Akan ku seru hantu dan jembalang amek kau dan tk kasi org lain amek. Hah!

Well i better sign off now. Till i blog again, maybe. See ya!

-Farhan

I guess this is the right for us to say

We'd take our time and live our lives,together day by day

We make a wish and send it on a prayer

We both know our dreams can all come true

With you I'll never wonder, will you be there for me or whether you're the right one for me

And finally, I found a love of a lifetime

A love to last my whole life through and stays forever in my heart

With every kiss our love is like brand new

And every star up in the sky was made for me and you

Even though we both know that the road is long,

But still we know that we will be together cause our love is strong

In a different way that I was using you

WAH~ Im so frustrated cause initially I have almost done typing and done with it soon.
But now, I have to re-type everything cause I don't know what went wrong with the lappy.
PMS i guess, and now it's gone.. Blooddyy idiot! Eh! Cannot, i sayang my lappy.. alah bucuk bucuk.

Anyways, my stories has/have not been ever interesting to read on,except for my boyfriend, who reads it whenever he's free .Mainly, it is just an updation of what is happening on my daily routine or day. I just had my recovery from all sort of illness. But it' getting better now although it's been a week I'm enduring it without emcees and I still go to work. What a life. Sigh

My days have been great. Last Sunday, we performed for a wedding and it have been months since we last dance together. The bond is naturally there, only the touch of the steps went missing a bit. But, we always have done our very best.
I'm proud of myself cause I learned how to groom myself for the show. Less burden for my gerls cause actually, I'm sux in make-up. But at least I'm not so that gundu to not knowing how to blend my foundation with my skin. Well, some people are. Muke putih melepak,leher gelap! Suddenly, i got reminded about ketiak! Eew! Will talk about it on the later part.

As for last week, I love my weekdays more than my weekends cause Soldier book out on weekdays. It has been heaven of great time spending my precious time with the precious one.
We went for karaoke-ing, dinner, movie dates. I was so excited and always looking forward each time he books out. All I know, i was enjoying my time with him without realising that he needs to book in at that point of time. I wasn't sad but maybe because the time pass so fast that I never getta chance to spent a bit more time with him.
Like I always said, he have been the most understanding and patience guy I ever meet in my whole 22 years of living. I love him so much that whenever i hurt his feelings, I feel like I'm a bad gerl. But I'm not for sure. I'm just a normal human being who never fail to make mistakes.
Well, at least I'm still trying to take care of his feelings.

Oh yah mentioning about armpit earlier on. I just wanna share some stuffs.
Well, i listened to story regards about this lady who is naturally got body smell.
It's not a B.O to be precise but she just have this kind of "smell" which is not a nice smell either. OK i can't describe the smell neither.
Somehow, the armpit is black,like those black marks, sposen dua posen nyee kat kaki.
And i bet it has been a looonngg time since she last scrubbed it, or maybe never at all.
but still the boy stayed with her. Im just not too sure why he stayed.
Eeewwww!
And there goes another topic about the "kupang". Woman tend to shave,trim or wax it,right?
This lady trimmed hers, but somehow the "kupang" gave another undescribable smell. I don't know how the hell they fucked or how gross the guy can can licked it. I pitied the guy most cause any woman could not have that weirdo or stinky smell on their "flower". Cause if it is, there must be an unhygienic cases or maybe never wash it clean.
After which, she tried to shaved and it subsided a bit. But she claimed that she smelled it too and told the boyfriend at that point of time when they wanna fuck.
Easier to describe, it stinks like FRESH FISH, not decompose or rotten.
U tell me how ghastly and gross the smell!!!
OK! IM SUCCHA DISGUSTING idiot ah! And now i wanna puke!
likeee uuuweeeekkkkkkkk!!
Come on ah lady, jangan jadi pengotor. Kan da gangster berbual melayu. hahha
Tolong jangan nak jatuhkan martabat seorang wanita
For heaven sake, do something about it.
Tolong la jadi pembersih setiap mase
I'm just not too sure how u can actually be a disgusting fellow, black & yellow!
Well, i guess she is the most awful GF he had to fucked for the first and the last!
Nasib tak trauma!
Well, now he have moved on with somebody else. I'm so glad he did that.

Your Daily Life Readings

Love:

Today would be a good day to express any feelings you've been holding back from someone you care about.

Career:

Your hard work is paying off, someone at work has noticed your effort and you will be rewarded today.

Health:

Your health is improving, always keep an eye on your diet and exercise.

Wealth:

You've been doing great keeping up with your financial obligations!

That’s the way you live this life. Each day, one at a time. Now, if you spend your whole life worryin’ about something that’s gonna happen, before you know it, your life’s over and you spent an awful lot of it just worryin’. Hey, you heard that? Now that’s what life’s all about. Laughin’ and lovin’ each other. And knowin’ that people aren’t really gone when they die. We have all the good memories to sustain us until we see ‘em again.

"Take all the time you need to heal emotionally. Moving on doesn’t take a day; it takes lots of little steps to be able to break free of your broken self."

I don't want to be as mean as you though I can be, or pathetic as you always said to your pretty/good looking friends.

As far as i'm concern, my 2011 wasn't as miserable as my 2010 which is full of shits,nonsensical & bullshits from your side of story.

Or I can say, my early 2011 was the best start ever till now.

I don't mind if you can't resist your own past, be it you keep telling people you have moved on or whatever crap.

If you think you can't move on and keep missing my bf, i guess you should just stop it right away.

It's been a year plus babe. He's no more your listening ears, or someone who you can rely on anymore. Someone who's always there whenever you're need. You know that it was all your past.

Accept it, he's with me now. You can tell all around that I'm the one controlling him not to be friends with you, or get you out of his life, but he choose that instead. He choose to make that decision by himself and he don't want any of his past to come back and hunt him.

I though you choose not to mention me you and him, but still u did. Get rid all of it babe.

Now, you have your special one in your life. Be with him and move on a happy life which u always say u can. Be it with or without him, u can be happy. Prove it to yourself babe, not me. I don't wanna get myself so hooked up with your stories or his's anymore.

I'm much more happier now, not knowing anything.

Yeah, true wad you said. Now, i just leave it to God. There's always reasons behind everything that happened. If he knows that my bf doing shitty to me, he will let me see it with my own eyes. To ask you about it? Actually your stories does not convinced me much although you can see I was the one who was so eager to know, but in the end, it doesn't makes any difference. I'm still with your ex babe.

Furthermore now, I'm much more contented than before cause now i have my boyfriend with me.

You're just his past, nothing else matter now babe.

No point missing someone who don't even give a hood about u after everything that you have done.

Sins, thats wad you did. Hopefully Allah can forgive you on that. Not me or my boyfriend have the right to do so.

I dun want to sound harsh or bitch here, I just want you to realize that my boyfriend is no more your helping hand now.

Said as much u can that miss/missed.missed him, but deep down inside, you only the one can realized that it makes to no good in the end.

Or actually you need my boyfriend to post something here for you to make u feel better and release?. Maybe not much, but a little bit. Haah!

Well baby, i though you've moved on and I wanna give you around of applause, but the fact is, you're just the same old you.

Lots of Loves;

Current GF.

When i think it back, I know it makes to a no-good in the end. So i think i shall drop everything to make it work and worth in the end. I guess I shall give it a rest.
Too much of endurance can makes me feel sick but I think, that's the best.
At least i don't trouble people around to hear my shits. I know where i stand, and i know my rights too. I can handle myself cause I'm a grown up now. I have to stand on my own foot now.
Almighty, all i need is you.

Although we could only spent for hours, I really have a FABULOUS time with you. You endure my cranky-ness, my mood swing as much as I can endure yours for a year plus. Whenever you wanna tell me stories about your camp, I will always stop you cause sometimes I'm getting bored of it. I'm a mean person am I? But later on, he will surely tell me the whole lot of it,non-stop. HAHAHA. He's funny and cute at times but most of the time, he's irritating yet lovable. No matter how much I would complain about him, he is still the same man that I'm always in love with. Every bickering, arguments we had, he has been the most patience boyfriend I ever had. That's why i love him. He's the one who can accept me just the way I am as much as i can accept him,just the way he is. We both know each other flaws, and that makes us stronger. It is not a one-sided love or sacrifice, its the both of us. Just us. Whenever we meet, I always feel like it's our first time cause of the butterflies in my stomach. Makes me just wanna stare at his eyes under the moon,watch the gazing stars above us together. Drama much? Haha. Nah. We're done that once, and i'm waiting for another real DATE for us. Furthermore, we have much similarities to be compare. That makes us till this far. By God's willing, we will make it happen. I Love you. Mu.Fa.Ma. I wanna have you as my one and only and I dun wanna start from square one. As you know, you're always been missed, and now i have miss you. I mean everyday.